Last night was abysmal as far as sleeping was concerned. It was just terrible. So, I have taken two Benadryls to make sure I actually sleep tonight. (I am on prednisone, which tends to wind you up and cause sleep issues. I've gone several nights without Benadryl and sleeping just fine...until I wasn't.) I find, no matter how tired I am, I can find a second wind. Tonight a second wind is terribly unnecessary. I am fading fast. To quote my dearest Florence + the Machine - "I'm going under."
My mind is/was just full of things that must be done. I made the mistake of picking up a breastfeeding book to refresh my memory, and then started worrying about EVERYTHING. I'll have a c-section this time around, and am worried about how dealing with THAT will affect everything else. There was way too much thinking and then sleep just wouldn't come. I had bad dreams, and my phone rang from an unknown number. I was hot. I kept seeing scenes from the latest Walking Dead flash in front of my eyes (really not a good thing).
Being pregnant is so glamorous.
Posting everyday is certainly NOT good for beautiful everyday posts - I do feel like I'm really phoning it in these past few days. It can't all be profound wisdom like say, Elizabeth. But today, despite my tiredness, I got a flu shot, made brownies, dropped off a meal for a church family. Helped Thomas go through way too many flash cards for homework. The stuff of everyday, the wheel of time that keeps turning and turning.
I don't think you're phoning it in...I think this is part of what makes Nanoblopo so much fun. We get to see the stuff of everyday, and it's every bit as interesting!
Posted by: lizardek | Tuesday, November 12, 2013 at 12:34 PM
I totally agree with Liz. I am sorry you didn't sleep though. I hate that. I had a C-section with my twins. If I had to give birth again, this is exactly how I would do it! I recovered so much more easily after my C-section than my "regular" birth with Sarah. And nursing sucks, yes. For the first month. But then? Easy Peasy. And you know that going in the second time, it is the first time when you expect it NOT to suck that you are shocked and betrayed by it. You SO have this Sam. Really. The second time around is SO MUCH BETTER. Plus? I think you are amazing. Look at all you did! When I was pregnant, getting through the day was an accomplishment. You are AMAZING. Big Love coming your way! xoxo
Posted by: Megsie | Wednesday, November 13, 2013 at 12:29 AM